Seriously... I can't take it anymore, it's time ya'll know.

Alright, so... Tonight, I've officially lost it. I honestly contemplated throwing myself out of a car moving at 60 mph, and hope it would kill me. Honestly, death is the only thing that seems to be constant anymore. If I drop out of school I can't get into a dance class, no job, nothing, on the other hand... I'm free, still some what intelligent. There's always a G.E.D... Right...? At this point, I couldn't even care for my own life. I turned to my older sister in the same car, and looked her dead in the eye saying "If that house burnt down... I don't think I'd have the ability to care." she shook her head, but probably knew I wasn't lying.


Parents wonder why their children leave, never call, kill themselves, or kill their parents... It's not the kids... Children live what they learn, they don't learn as they live, and I refuse... REFUSE to end up like either of my parents. Sure, you might think I'm going a tiny bit overboard with this, but ya know...? I don't really give a Donkey's Beastialized Shit Hole anymore. My life is a living hell, and all of my friends see this, I don't think I can take this anymore to be honest... I'm currently calculating my escapes.... I could go the way of the girl in that Shinedown video, and just up and leave.... But that's not my style. I would prefer to just move in with my grandmother, I would give anything to get away from my parents at this point. Ya know, my mother and father were talking about where I -used- to want to go to college... Her only responce was "I'm not paying for him to learn to dance." Ya know what? Fine, Infact, I'm linking this blog to my facebook, so maybe they can get a clue of exactly what they do to us.  


My sisters are convinced my mother hates them, my older sisters thinks my mother thinks she's a criminal, and a bad influence. EVERYTHING I DO IS OF MY OWN VOLITION... Get that through your thick skulls. I'm not some impressionable young kid anymore, I'm more mature than ya'll give me credit for. Speaking of, where the hell do you come off acting like you never lied once in your childhoods, if you come up here, and tell me you didn't... That's such a damn lie it isn't even funny. I could just go ask my grandmother, yeah, I could. Dude, makes me wonder what crap ya'll would say about me behind my back, disgusting.